Saturday, September 19, 2009

Wedding Jitters

So now that i have counted and there are only 20 days till showtime, I'm getting nervous. the fact of the matter is I'm not where i planned on being weight wise so I'm working hard these last few days. So far I've eaten oatmeal with flax seed for three meals and I'm still alive so it's not awful. So much for sexy and slim, but I don't think what I'm going for is unrealistic, I'm not trying to be a 90210 girl skinny because honestly I'm not insane. Although if I had 100k on the line for every episode based on weather or not I'm 98lbs, I'd be a toothpick too.

On a heavier note, the wedding itself. Kris' sister is not my biggest fan and let's just say I'm not hers, but she never asked me to be a bridesmaid. I wasn't expecting to be maid of honor or anything but a bridesmaid, yes. I mean Kris is one of her future hubby's groomsmen and I'm not even up for consideration. Here's the thing, she was one of mine, for two reasons: 1. I figured we were going to be family and it's something I think I would have regretted not having her part of. 2. Her mother BEGGED! But whatever what's done is done, except for her not wanting Lauren to be a flower girl. Who cares if she's not able to walk down he isle, she should be part of her aunties wedding!

One more thing her wedding is two days after my birthday, happy birthday to me. She couldn't have waited a week? I did, my mothers birthday was one week before my wedding. Oh and although no one liked driving an hour to where my wedding was, hers is in the same town, and it's no closer a year later!

So I guess it's wedding jitters and wedding bitterness!

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

Busy Busy Busy, Baby Baby Baby

Well there is a lot to catch up on, such as Lauren has officially learned how to turn over all on her own, right away, there's no figuring it out anymore, next step crawling. Although I would love to see her sit up on her own for more than a few seconds, I know she feels so helpless. On a brighter note shes now 5 months old so the big 6 months is coming up. Here is my worry, Kris' sister is getting married on October 10th and Lauren is a flower girl and I fought for that, because family wise, this is her only shot and I'm not too sure she'll be throwing the flower petals which is obviously all the flower girl has got going on. Oh well I'll get her down the aisle some how, I'd love some ideas!

You know what sucks? My car has been in the shop for what I'd say is going on 3 weeks! like come on! The reason? When they rebuilt the engine, they screwed up my a/c. Now picture driving in 98 degree weather with no a/c. Cant do it without getting a little mental hot flash can you? & everyday the mechanic says ' I promise tomorrow, tomorrow, it will be ready' tomorrow rolls around, 'did i say tomorrow? oh something came up, i promise tomorrow' I'm seeing a pattern, do you? Meanwhile I'm stuck at home and well...not hating it. At times I wish I could go out but no one is relying on me to help them do anything so its my little blessing in disguise. On the other hand, I have a budget of $10,000 to spend on a car, the catch? I have to pay in full so I'm not sure what to do, if I wait a month I'll have a bit more to spend but i will have to use my P.O.S. car until then. Ahhh its not as bad as I make it seem. Its a 2001 expedition but with no a/c its just a big oven.

Kris' dog's puppy, had puppy's! we have her at my parent's and he takes care of them and its bittersweet, not so great since neither I or Kris is taking care of any dog except a toy poodle that lives with us but that now my dad has 15 dogs to look after! I'm really surprised he still has hair!

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

Getting Started...

So today, I had it easy. Lauren was out like a light and i got things done! I'm talking dishes, laundry, and all around clean. Until Kris called! Even though my phone was on vibrate Lauren woke up. Nothing too serious but I wish I could turn all phones off when shes napping. Oh well shes a trooper. One big problem I seem to have is my right boob is twice as big as my left. I wish I was kidding but I'm completely serious. So i have been trying to feed Lauren with the left but the milk order has not been filled. Ugh! Oh well I can get two different sizes of bras, cut them in half and sew them together...not exactly chic!